Monday, April 26, 2010

A Great Day For Freedom

So I finally quit work.

I'm sitting at home on a monday for the first time in 6 months and it feels good! I finally feel like I can get down to so much of other work that's been piling on since God-knows-when.

I haven't written anything of substance(not including this blog) in over four months! I haven't recorded a whole song in over three..and I strongly bel it was because of work. The office was a road block when it came to creativity, and I know that for a fact because I already have a solid idea for a new song in my head...The cool bit is that the parts were thought of months back, but just sitting and sorting them all out in my head let them fall into place, and into a structure...
If nothing else, I have "Shuchi's Song" to keep the creative juices flowing.

I'm glad Shuch showed up at TLR..and E at route04. There's this sense of euphoria that surrounds reconnecting with friends after a period of time, even if you're just standing with a pint waiting to play a gig, or just sitting in bar and catching up. I'm drawn to two very opposing sides when it comes to "catching up". A part of me feels like it should never get to the point where you need to "reconnect" with a friend, but a part of me enjoys the euphoria too much. Trying to draw a conclusion, a little logic helps me cheat...Logic and I share a love-hate relationship worthy of a TV soap, but more on that later..

Sunday, April 18, 2010


This is what they meant when they said the music died.

What also died with it, was a little bit of me, when I saw this...

I feel fractured

Monday, April 12, 2010

Silver Bullets

Rain brings life to this
Barren ground i call
My mind
And these days
Realization lies in
Knowing I have left
Some scars
Along the way
Yet to heal

I'm done waiting
I'm done playing
Go find you silver bullet
I got my earthen dreams

Medicate this
Frustration or tell me
Things arent right
But they arent wrong
Misleading hope has
Thrown me off but
I still hold
My resolve
To bring me home

I'm not thinking
I'm not praying
Go find your silver bullet
I got my earthen dreams

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Subterranean Homesick Engineer

It's a slow wednesday. Im blogging from the office because the work is done..alright, not done - I've done most of it but I'm stuck at this one point where the diagram refuses to show and its completely aggravating...

not the point...

I'm not quite sure what the point is, actually. Im working for a company that doesnt pay me, without a degree in my hands(for the time being) and with only a rough idea of what I want to do in life...yet somehow, in general, I feel alright. I think the system's made me immune to overthinking things. College was like that- barely studying for the internals, somehow scraping through the end-sems(yeah, I did give a re-appars, but I can honestly say it wasn't because of, im not a blame-thrower...leave!), conjuring projects and assignments out of thin air(read, the world wide web, coupled with the fancy boys at nehru place and/or gafaar market). Four years just made me accustomed to the "ho jaaega" frame of mind...Just makes me worship Pink Floyd even more for having coming up with being "comfortably numb"...I'll stop ranting now..

I hate being in the office and not having anything to do. I'd rather just do that at home, at least there I can waste my time away in the comfort of my bed rather than a lousy, revolving chair.

But hey! I found out NTU doesnt require work ex, so plan A is, for all practical purposes, back on track :D
I just need to start studying for the GRE......tiny techinicality if you ask me. Though, I really should stop going out as much as I do on the weekends, thats the only time I have to study 'coz there is no way in hell I'm studying AFTER work! Mind-numbing-ness will reach great, new heights if that happens and I really could do without that for now.


P.S How in the world do I get more people to read all of this?!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

So i just got to know that Singapore doesn't let you apply for a masters program without 2 years of work ex (at least for comp. science)

there goes plan A.....wish i had plan B in mind
i would like to quote the internet at this point of time..."FML"